A dose of white coat and steth; tacit stance

OK, i was browsing a medical blog last night.. the blog and the topics where quite interesting when i suddenly bumped into this topic "top 10 uncommon medical diseases"..  - there were pictures and description of each featured diseases, and while scanning the pictures something run through me *GOOSEBUMPS!? and automatically closed the browser, that scares me a lot, huh. C'mon?? I've been seeing a lot of this before, this was a common scenario when i was a nursing student and to think that Im a registered nurse already..

I know Im not medically engaged  for 8 months right now, but to feel and act that way is something i must deal and fix right now. few months from now, ill be entering med school and knowing how exciting med school was im pretty sure, i'll be seeing and studying a lot of this in the future..

"ill be okay, i need to prepare myself for this." - POSITIVITY.

:)

after deep thinking and sorting of resources, I've finally decided to pursue medicine, and knowing that my parents were still speechless and shocked about the idea.. i came up, giving them a proposal hoping that they'll never turn it down.

the proposal? in exchange of buying me a brand new car, they will send me to med school instead. a brand new car would cost them 1million i think, and estimating the med school expenses would cost them the same amount. Im pretty confident that my parents will like the proposal.. knowing that they were both kuripot, and business minded (my mom is an accountant while my dad is a ship captain)

so, okay after a day of thinking about the trouble and pocket draining that lies ahead of them, they said YES! hahaha. finally! :)

KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, AND ALWAYS FIND A WAY! hahaha.

i can still remember my childhood days, especially the games that we usually play - DOKTOR-DOKTORAN! Im the doctor, and my two little siblings will be the patient. We play and pretend that our room was the clinic, then the medicines was the colorful little candies that taste like sweet flour, then i have this cute doctor play toy that my mom bought because of my childish tantrums at the toy store. :) and as far as i can remember we still play it until our elem days - grade 4 i think because we were not allowed to go outside and play with our neighbors.

days passed, and i can still feel the emptiness.. until one of our neighbors ask me about dengue and told me "ung mga doctor sa **** hospital parang incompetent, kulang na ata tayo ng mga doctor eh pano nagnunurse na sila."

 something striked me and i heared a little voice "magdoktor ka!", i was quiet hesitant about the idea so i consulted my mom and dad but the thought of med school, another 6 years, tuition fees made them speechless.

and that left me hanging. :((

Okay, I made a blog to be my journal and tracker on how hunting schools-preparing application requirements-getting into med school-being a med student have shaped me.

I've been hearing a lot on how tough med school was, that's why i decided to use this as an output of the roller coaster ride that I am about to face. :)