every bits of realization..
i can still remember my childhood days, especially the games that we usually play - DOKTOR-DOKTORAN! Im the doctor, and my two little siblings will be the patient. We play and pretend that our room was the clinic, then the medicines was the colorful little candies that taste like sweet flour, then i have this cute doctor play toy that my mom bought because of my childish tantrums at the toy store. :) and as far as i can remember we still play it until our elem days - grade 4 i think because we were not allowed to go outside and play with our neighbors.
and that left me hanging. :((
And that led me to the dream of becoming a doctor and a nurse. Actually, i also want to be a ballerina, a cashier, a bank teller, and a teacher. But i forgot about those simple and fickle dreams when i gone in high school.
until my college years, brought me closer to one of my childhood dreams - being a nurse. I was torn between shifting to another course and school because i was enjoying and indulging in staying at manila, studying on my dream school (UST), and pursuing my new found love- becoming a food technologist. But my father insisted and won, *ok, mag nunurse ako! tas, magaabroad ako, tas kikita ako ng dollars. yehey!
then, after 4 years of studying (kasi ginawa ko lahat para maging regular student) and 4 months of preparation for the board (NLE), i become a registered nurse! that was one of the best days of my 21 years of existence.
As a reward for being a RN, my father told me that he'll give me a new car.. *i was thinking of mazda 3 and fortuner (even if we already have a fortuner, huh! im just fascinated about its gps and want a car of my own) back then.
with all of the achievements and rewards that i am opt to receive, i can still feel that something is missing, that my life was half empty instead of being half full. that's why i prayed and asked for an answer-a sign.
days passed, and i can still feel the emptiness.. until one of our neighbors ask me about dengue and told me "ung mga doctor sa **** hospital parang incompetent, kulang na ata tayo ng mga doctor eh pano nagnunurse na sila."something striked me and i heared a little voice "magdoktor ka!", i was quiet hesitant about the idea so i consulted my mom and dad but the thought of med school, another 6 years, tuition fees made them speechless.
and that left me hanging. :((
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